Over-mediafication

Over-mediafication: (n) the over-stimulated ramifications of excess social  media.

I get over-mediafied a lot, getting on the web and start surfing around looking for interesting blogs and new ideas which is exactly what I find…except it’s too much. Having a tendency to over think and over analyze, I add everything going on in social media which seems to paralyze me. I start comparing what others have done to myself taking it to a 24/7 point of obsession.

There are times like the other night where I find myself laying on my bed thinking about all the different things I could do. It’s exciting at first because I really want to do the things being contemplated. But then the excitement wears off and the fear and comparing barge in. Thoughts go from, How cool would it be to do this?, to, Other people have already done that and done it better than I could. I think about what direction I want to head in my life and where I want to see my writing go. Then I turn to other blogs or writers or entrepreneurs and compare what I am now to what they are. And the younger they are, the more comparing I do, the worse it becomes.

There I found myself laying in my bed on Monday night…thinking. I’d love to write about business, except I’ve never owned a business ergo that’s out. I’d like to write about communication but I’m not hanging my hat on that one seeing as how communication is obsolete. Celeste! What the hell do you want? I say to myself on the verge of tears. I don’t KNOW! But I know that I can’t write about something that’s challenging without having to go through some challenge myself.

And there it was, Challenge, calling my name. The question is, what is a challenge that I want? What do I want to change in my life? Weight? Sometimes yes and sometimes no. Money? Yes. Men? Men don’t change. Myself? Yes, as a matter of fact, I’d like to change myself. Not necessarily physically as I’d like to mentally. Instead of thinking and analyzing all the damn time or staying at home because it’s more comfortable then going out to a rock climbing class because you’re nervous about what all the other people will think about you. I don’t want to be afraid of speaking to people in my age bracket who are “professionals” or experts in their fields – or even just because I’m intimidated by what I think they stand for. I don’t want to wait on anyone else to guide me through life; I could be waiting a long time. In essence, I don’t want to be sitting in my bed thinking my whole life; that will never get me where I want to go!

When we commit to challenging ourselves, we open ourselves up to failure and success all in one. We open up to change. Change is something I want, but at the same time I’m a bit afraid. I just read an inspiring blog by a woman named Tisa getting ready to start her own business. In this blog, Tisa speaks about fear being both good and bad. Must say that I agree with her and recommend reading what she has to say. I wish her the best of luck and know that she will not need it – success is on her side.